2020 is my year of craft.

Not for an Etsy shop, not for sale at craft shows, just for fun.

After the birth of my third child I went through a bit of a grey period. For a few months, I had no motivation to do or make anything, no interest in much at all. I call it a grey period because it was not all dark, I was generally happy - hanging out with friends, vacations, smiles, and laughter. If you hung out with me during this period you wouldn’t have known at all. Honestly, I didn’t really know until the clouds started to clear a few months later and I realized that I was feeling better. I know many women struggle in big ways but I think it’s important to know that postpartum trouble can occur on many different levels. It’s not just sunshine and rainbows or doom and gloom, there is a lot of time spent in between and that’s ok.

On a happier note, I spent last year taking better care of myself. New clothes, a haircut, lost a little weight, and most importantly made some time for myself, my work, and my hobbies. This year I want to keep the creative spark going because that is truly something that makes me happy. I’ve worked in the fabric and sewing industry for over 13 years but I’ve never felt successful because I’ve never really been able to make my side hustle a real business. I’ve come to accept that I’m probably never going to have a 6 figure Etsy shop or make thousands of dollars every weekend at amazing craft shows. You might never be able to swipe up on my Instagram stories and that’s ok. I work part-time from home so I can be with my kids and I’ve started to realize the work that I do for the women I work for is important and I’m good at it. I am allowed to have my hobbies just for fun. As I recently read, it’s ok to not monetize your joy.

So this year I am going to dabble in all the areas of craft that I love and maybe a few new ones too. Will this last a month or a year? I don’t know, but I’m excited to find out.